A Love Letter
Fantastic – out of this world
My Dear Love,
Looking back, it seems like we were little children trying to play house. But I am glad I stuck with you even though there were times when I wanted to run away from it all. I am grateful that you stayed with me for this incredible voyage we embarked upon, many years ago.
Although I describe this as a journey, it hardly comes close to describing a relationship so intimate, so constantly existent that sometimes it felt as though I would just disappear into this gaping maw. But we found our boundaries and learned when not to over-step.
It took me a while to realize that you accepted me for who I was without judgement, without trying to change me. I am glad you let me be myself, because I could speak the first thought that pops into my head and just be myself with you. This gave me the space to grow into a well-adjusted person, without the need to compartmentalize my emotions. Such candor brought about a lot of friction and disagreement, but we found our way through it.
After being through the ups and downs, stitched together with the humdrum of day-to-day life, all those traits that we found annoying about each other seems to have disappeared. Maybe they still exist, we don’t seem to mind as much.
Because of you I am ageless;
Because I know you will forgive me, I try not to hurt you with my foolishness;
Because you are perceptive I don’t have the need to explain myself.
Every moment of everyday where ever I am, I feel your presence. The knowledge that you are there for me, that I can count on you no matter what, gives me the strength to reach for the stars.
If I fail, what does it matter? Because even on the worst day of my life, at a time when I am so angry, that I cannot bring myself to look at you, should someone ask me how my life is, I can smile and honestly say, ‘It’s fantastic’.
Note: When I started writing the Rambling series, I was discussing it with a friend and asked her for topic suggestions. As she flooded me with ideas, one of her earliest and favorite was a beautiful term in Tamil, ‘Aadharsha dhambathigal’, which translates to, ‘ideal couple’, in English. The result of the thought process was this love letter; some from my experience, but mostly from what I have seen among the couples from the earlier generation within the circle of friends and relatives, with marriages that span so long that the couple would have melded into a single unit, having built a world just for themselves complete with a language all their own.